Review – Not if I See You First


Title: Not if I See you First
Author: Eric Lindstrom
Publication: December 1st 2015 by Poppy
Genre: YA, Contemporary
Pages: 320 pages
Format: Library book
Rating: 4/5

About the book:

The Rules:

Don’t deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public.

Don’t help me unless I ask. Otherwise you’re just getting in my way or bothering me.

Don’t be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, I’m just like you only smarter.

Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That’s why she created the Rules: Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only one way to react—shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right, her eyes don’t work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since her dad’s death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened—both with Scott, and her dad—the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.

Combining a fiercely engaging voice with true heart, debut author Eric Lindstrom’s Not If I See You First illuminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.


So here’s the alphabetical run down:


Parker Grant is in general an unlikeable main character. She’s blind, but somehow uses this as permission to say whatever she thinks at any time to anyone she wants.  Honestly, I loved her.  She is hilarious and her “Rules” are spot on.

Rule #10: Don’t make sounds to help or guide me. It’s just silly and rude, and believe me, you’ll be the one who looks stupid and ends up embarrassed, not me.

I love her friendship with Sarah and Faith and Molly (three very different characters). I even loved the mistakes she made misjudging other people’s motives; they seemed real and honest and very fitting to who she was. I absolutely loved Scott’s character, especially the backstory you get on him from Parker’s flashback.


I like this cover. The colors are eye catching and the braille is unique and fits the story perfectly. It doesn’t blow me away, but it’s memorable, so that’s good.


This book isn’t primarily a romance, although there is a romance involved.  I feel like the story revolves more around Parker learning to love her “new” family, learning to love her friends and let them love her back, and learning that love and trust can be broken and mended and that second chances are sometimes necessary.


Parker was my favorite part of this book. She is loud and outspoken and can’t seem to grasp how selfish she actually is through most of the book. She is realistic in a way that most characters in YA fiction aren’t.  I would love for this book to have an epilogue.  That’s just personal preference, but the last chapter really left me wanting to know more.


“Not sure yet. I’m hopeful. Probably won’t be a disaster. Ask again later”
“Sure thing, Magic 8 Ball.”

“We don’t get along generally but I don’t get along with lots of people.”
“Because they don’t follow The Rules?” Molly asks.
“Because they’re mindless overly complicated drones who don’t say what they mean and get bent out of shape when I do. And they don’t follow The Rules. Which shouldn’t even be called Parker’s Rules anyway. It’s just a lot of common sense that common people commonly lack.”


I actually enjoyed this book more than I expected to.  Since the romance was less of a main theme I expected to be slightly disappointed, but I was instead pleasantly surprised with the depth of Parker’s character and the conclusion was just fantastic.




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